Friday, June 27, 2008

11:47 PM

today. morning assembly was screwed. totally...
percussion sect at the beginning suddenly all
stop...then the band paused for a split second.
but luckily continued...haix...if the sec ones arent
ready please dont let them play...we will end up
screwing ourselves up...

lessons was normal. didnt go ecp today for geog,
but was postponed to next fri. must do things like
count the wave frequency :/ so troublesome...

band. darren took warm ups. was quite ok. the
feeling in the band room wasnt the same anymore.
i felt that it was like a stranger to me...the band
suddenly become so small...i could see the conductor
so clearly...maybe its a good thing, but i rather
that i cant see the conductor clearly...

band prac was bad...no excuses for it i would say.
just plainly that we arent good enough and we've
been depending on our sec4s too much. far too
much...when left alone, we couldnt produce
anything nice...maybe its just time. if the band
gets inspired by the BMs, then we can make it...
if not...haix...

had a batch meeting then i got to rush off to the
foyer for the taking of attendance for
meet-the-parents session. the sai gang that
monitors do. but im ok with anyway, we are the
leaders. i shant procastinate...

after most parents have reached, we were supposed
to go up to the hall to do ushering. mr maran came
to talk to us. he said,"you all are the only leaders
that will lead until the day you leave vs. even
when you come back to collect the o lvl results,
you are the ones that get your class organised..."
this words ensure me that that day i chose to be
a monitor, i did the correct thing. hopefully nothing
goes wrong, so that i can be a monitor till the end
of my vs school life. cant say vs life. cause once
a victorian always a victorian.

help in the ushering than left for home with afiq
and sidney. then sidney got a call from his dad
saying that he will be fetching him home. so me
and afiq went to the bus stop and wait. yunsol
called and told me they on 197, so i boarded and
left. and now. blogging and also eating my dinner
): so late liao then eat dinner...

tmr is handover...the day i dread though im going
to get my dream post. things are going to happen.
behind the scene things. am i ready for it? no...
remember during the march band camp, mr ikhwan
asked our batch are we ready for handover. we
said no. but gradually we gained some confidence.
but now, maybe its just me being paranoid, im
not ready for it...
i was just stating facts...yet you get irritated...im not saying its your fault.
i do give people the impression that i am like that...i really feel im worthless
to you...