Friday, May 30, 2008

11:44 PM

linchun. you are a real man. you can bottle
everything up. because you dont want us to
worry about it. same as sidney, i feel that this
struck me. such a good friend i have by my
side.




sidney you really no balls leh...the girl like there
lor, just open your mouth and ask,
"erm can i have your number please? i wish
to be make friends with you."
and you are done...she reject then reject lor :/
anyway her friend is not bad too :x you missed
2 actually.


i think im kind of like lost? im unsure about my
feelings for you...isit still there? or it has long
faded away...seeing you have fun with the other
guys is so sour...seeing you sad is so bitter...
seeing you smile is so sweet...you havent given
me an answer...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

9:31 PM

its your birthday today(:
happy birthday. i wish you really happy birthday.
wonder how you celebrate it? i guess it was fun ba.
hope that all your wishes will come true. work hard
for it and i think it will happen.

vanessa is real good(: and her grandma's noodles
are very nice! haha. thanks for the noodles(:

concert is on this sat! im chionging for it. so
pardon me if i cannot make it for many things.
im sorry. theatre music is really nice! i want to
dedicate it to those who are coming to mwxxii.
especially movement 2(:



this may be my last post for the next 3 months
or so...i will be online lesser also...so cherish it or
at least rmb it...saw mr ikhwan today with my
father. knew that it wasnt going to be good for
me...no coms, games, entertainment or anything
to waste my time...
now everything is just revision, do assessment
book, textbook, notes, maybe tuition. my life
from now on will revolve around studies and
band. nothing more. cause i did a good job in my
mid years. if i have to turn down any invitations,
im really sorry. i shall apologise in advance as i
will be rejecting alot. sorry people. want know
more can call or msg me. and if i never pick up
or reply, im sorry also...this is not an emo post.
just a notification.

Friday, May 23, 2008

11:45 PM

yesterday:
accompany sidney with vanessa go parkway buy
presents for sidney's sweet cousins :/ some
more twins leh. walked about 1h ++ then went
back to 77th street to buy two necklaces.
vanessa's friend come le then me and sidney
decide to go tampines ourself.

vanessa's friend, jiaying, wanted to pierce.
me and sidney were planning to leave for
tampines le. then vanessa told sidney that
jiaying piercing and sidney got hyper lor.
never see piercing before mah so i also follow.

we met them then jiaying still deciding whether
to pierce or not. after like 1hr like that,
she decided to pierce. then very funny lor.
she very scared then like keep on wanting to
back out. "(staple sound)" done liao. lol.
very cool lor. i want to try also :/

went tampines yamaha to buy sidney's drum sticks
for his cousin. then went back home.

today:
morning assembly was nice man. hafiz won the head
prefect, ziyad got the 1st deputy head prefect,
and andres got 2nd deputy head prefect. was quite
an expected result.

today is mrs bala's last day in vs. she pursuing
her master degree in australia. feel happy for
her but sad cause she leaving. shes a good geog
teacher man. though she teach me onyl in sec1 and
the first part of sec2, its enough. i've learnt
under her guidance. thanks mrs bala!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

11:49 PM

jj is pestering with this singer and song for the
whole day le as if i dont know :/
he is a very good singer. and he sings damn nice
de song.

here's a short video of 萧敬腾 singing 背叛.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKS5x-NWMBs



here's another video of 萧敬腾,曹格 and 杨宗纬 singing 背叛

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNj41Le5AO4

9:15 PM

today i see my overall score:

eng: c6
hcl: c6
chem: c6
physics: c6
emaths: a2
amaths: f9
comb humans: e8

total: 34

yes. same as ca1. 34. a fucked up number.
not there yet not here -.- but bad enough for
me to stay in esp...mr low is going to screw me
again. haix...really regretted not working hard
enough...

im not going to regret for not putting up a good
performance on 31may 08. no way. i want to
make it a real good one not for anyone, but more
for myself.

12:19 AM

Quiz:

1) If your lover betrayed you, what will your
reaction be?
Erm quite a hard question :/ i dont experience
it before so i dont know.

2) If you can have a dream come true, what
would it be?
To be a really normal guy.

3) What will your dream wedding be like?
On a deserted island only me and her with a nice
small house.

4) Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Yes.

5) What's your ideal lover like?
A normal girl with heart of gold :/ but that would
be expensive.

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being
loved by someone?
Loving someone? i dont know. one is giving, the
other is receiving.

7) How long do you intend to wait for someone you
really love?
I dont know...till she accepts me?

8) If the person you secretly liked is attached, what
would you do?
Stick to her till i give up totally lor.

9) Is there anything that make you unhappy these
days?
It would take a whole day to listen me rant about
it. But one very obvious one, results.

10) If you have a choice, what kind of family would
you want to be born into?
A family without violence and quarrels. In other
words, the dream happy family.

11) Is being tagged fun?
yeS.

12) How do you see yourself in 10years time?
Recover and become normal.

13) Who are currently the most important people
to you?
You. Who is reading this now.

14) What kind of person do you think the person
who tagged you is?
Caring? And maybe despo to care about me? :/

15) Would you rather be single and rich or married
but poor?
Single and rich!

16) What's the first thing you do every morning?
Slam the damn phone which is ringing.

17) Would you give all in a relationship?
Most likely. Dont ask me. God knows >.<

18) Do you live to love, live to hate or live for the
sake of living?
Live for the sake of living la. For now at least.

19) What type of friends do you like?
Honest, caring and all the good characteristics of
a human that you can think of. Textbook answer
cause im not a good friend. ):

20)What type of friends do you dislike?
The bad charateristics of a human that you can
think of. Im not in any position to comment. Im
not a good friend.

Tag: You who have read this post.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

11:37 PM

33...not a good number neither isit a bad number.
not a bad number cause. i improve by 1 points.
pathetic-.- not a good number because 2 days ago,
i was confident i can get out of esp. while waiting
the last subject, english, i got 27... i needed 3points
at least a b3 to get out of esp...paper come, c6...
boom my hope all vanish...when hopes become
disappointment, its damn painful...wow i improve
by 1 points man. sing my praises everybody-.-

english: c6
emaths: a2
amaths: f9
chem: c5
physics: c6
comb humans: e8
hcl: c6

good job wenglok (:



xxxxxxxxxx



its your bday soon. 28may 2 years ago. things
happened but not to last. after 7august 07,
everything revert back to nothing. still the same.
it may be a mistake but i didnt regret it. is was
worth it. that short span of time we didnt do
much but was fun. i guess the fault lies in me.
i would really like to wish you a happy 15th
birthday in advance. if i had to try again, i
would have done the same thing.

Friday, May 16, 2008

8:33 PM

today is the start post exams activities.
checking of scripts. T.T


emaths: 64/100 B4

chemistry: 55.1/100 C5


expected my emaths to be 60+ le so not that
sad. 3a about 3/4 of the class got >90 marks.
wtf man. bloody muggers...

chemistry expected about the same :/
so today wasnt that sad after all. on tues, gone
man. amaths, english, higher chinese, humans,
physics. i think i will cry la...out of 5 subjects, i
think only language got hope. haix regretted not
study hard enough to owned the papers ):

ahh. i shall not get bothered by it now...oswin sir
say dont care about anything else le. time to
chiong chiong chiong! chiong for musical world!
must make it a really good one. about 2 weeks
left to musical world, all efforts will be put on
band pracs.

i start to like devil wears prada again ):
such nice show with great memories...
haix...

bye bye. musical world! confirm nice nice one la!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

11:03 AM

exams over liao. now concert.
yesterday's band prac was not good at all...maybe
cause we all never touch our instruments for like
1 month. lost touch le. but i think the biggest factor
is we already lousy :/ i admit i am. maybe not for
the rest of my band mates ba.

mr tan was quite nice. didnt screw us even though
we playing really like shit. he focused on entry.
i found out that we all hesitated when coming in.
always waiting for someone to come in before we
come in.

later going watch ironman with sidney and linchun.
i know very late le. but nevermind. must watch de.
playing with jj they all le. bye bye (:

Saturday, May 10, 2008

11:37 PM

im stupid

im stupid. really stupid...
sa1 is gone. esp for me till end of year. maybe
what waits for me is even more. retain...

lets start with the first day of exams:
social studies - never do finish paper, questions
that i did was like shit. gone.
expected marks: 10/30

higher chinese paper 1 - do finish, letter writing
should be quite ok, situational writing gone.
expected marks: 45/70

second day:
english paper 1 - do finish, not confident at all...
expected marks: 55%

higher chinese paper 2 - no time finish and very
difficult.
expected marks: 40%

third day:
english paper 2 - not enough time to write down
last two sentences of summary.
expected marks: 55%

emaths - can finish but some questions dont know
how to do.
expected marks: 60/100

fourth day:
biology - never take

fifth day:
chemistry - can finish but got quite a few of
questions dont know how to do.
expected marks: 55/100

sixth day:
amaths - totally gone.
expected marks: 5/100

till now i have totally no confidence in getting
L1R5 <30...
expected L1R5: 42




some reflections on why i doing so badly:

1. i never put in all my effort.
2. sleep in class
3. never listen in class
4. never do homework
5. frequent absent from school

and many more than i cant think of now.


people always say: you study hard then you
play hard. i finally understand this. im not
smart by nature. i dont work hard, i become
stupid. this is what is happening to me now.
i become stupid.

friends always ask me. why you sec1 can get
so good results but now like shit? i guess i have
the answer to this. i was too complacent. after
achieving a little success, i stopped working
hard.

i must stop this and really work hard for the
eoy. i hope its really not too late yet. i dont
want to end up regretting my actions and
wasting one year going through what ive
learnt. ive seen erwin's experience. getting
suan by everyone in school. i dont want to
follow his footsteps...

theres one person that i sincerely would like to
apologise to. sidney. he motivated me alot to
study hard for this sa1. but i didnt study very
hard. my result is going to disappoint him...
im sorry sidney. i promised that i will really really
study hard for ca2 though it cant get me out of
esp. but at least i can prepare myself for the eoy.
he is also the person i want to thank. he motivated
me greatly to study hard. if he didnt motivate me.
i think i would have done far worser than this.