Saturday, May 10, 2008

11:37 PM

im stupid

im stupid. really stupid...
sa1 is gone. esp for me till end of year. maybe
what waits for me is even more. retain...

lets start with the first day of exams:
social studies - never do finish paper, questions
that i did was like shit. gone.
expected marks: 10/30

higher chinese paper 1 - do finish, letter writing
should be quite ok, situational writing gone.
expected marks: 45/70

second day:
english paper 1 - do finish, not confident at all...
expected marks: 55%

higher chinese paper 2 - no time finish and very
difficult.
expected marks: 40%

third day:
english paper 2 - not enough time to write down
last two sentences of summary.
expected marks: 55%

emaths - can finish but some questions dont know
how to do.
expected marks: 60/100

fourth day:
biology - never take

fifth day:
chemistry - can finish but got quite a few of
questions dont know how to do.
expected marks: 55/100

sixth day:
amaths - totally gone.
expected marks: 5/100

till now i have totally no confidence in getting
L1R5 <30...
expected L1R5: 42




some reflections on why i doing so badly:

1. i never put in all my effort.
2. sleep in class
3. never listen in class
4. never do homework
5. frequent absent from school

and many more than i cant think of now.


people always say: you study hard then you
play hard. i finally understand this. im not
smart by nature. i dont work hard, i become
stupid. this is what is happening to me now.
i become stupid.

friends always ask me. why you sec1 can get
so good results but now like shit? i guess i have
the answer to this. i was too complacent. after
achieving a little success, i stopped working
hard.

i must stop this and really work hard for the
eoy. i hope its really not too late yet. i dont
want to end up regretting my actions and
wasting one year going through what ive
learnt. ive seen erwin's experience. getting
suan by everyone in school. i dont want to
follow his footsteps...

theres one person that i sincerely would like to
apologise to. sidney. he motivated me alot to
study hard for this sa1. but i didnt study very
hard. my result is going to disappoint him...
im sorry sidney. i promised that i will really really
study hard for ca2 though it cant get me out of
esp. but at least i can prepare myself for the eoy.
he is also the person i want to thank. he motivated
me greatly to study hard. if he didnt motivate me.
i think i would have done far worser than this.